Friday, December 11, 2009

The crazy days

For a time I have been using WORDPRESS as my blogging avenue, just to get rid of the familiar feeling I have with blogspot. But I realize that when the 'new-ness' finally wears off then you always go back to where you came from.

I came from BLOGSPOT that's why I always go back. There is something comfortable with the thought that you have a control with what you write in. Though I must say that the main problem with this blogging site is its plain-ness, I guess it also sort of become a strength to it since when you try not to look at it for a long time, then look at it again, you feel surprised and proud of how patient you are in putting up with all the blogging process.

I just want to find a place where I can really share myself, not just to other people but with my future self. I want to look at these memories again 10 years from now and recall all the crazy days I've had. 

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


I should be doing something else.
But at mornings like this, I just don't feel like doing anything
except perhaps watch porn... well not really, but I just don't feel like doing anything.
I've already practiced singing.
In a matter of an hour, I'll be up again
to meet my student.
If this computer breaks down on me again,
something should be done.
For now,
maybe I should join the rest of the world- sleeping.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Korean POP Singing Contest

Korea and everything about it has become so ingrained in me already. I have been studying its language and culture for quite some time now. Why? Well, I think I fall in love with this country when I visited it in 2007-2008. Now, I am joining again this Korean SINGING contest this year in my university hoping I'll bag the FIRST place already, coz last year I just ended up as second. I am confident this year that I'll bring home the GRAND PRIZE.


I passed the pre-screening so my name's written as the second performer. I'm so excited about this.

This year, I have chosen to sing the song 가지마 가지마 ('Gajima Gajima' literally Don't Go, Don't Go) sung by  Brown Eyes. Last year I sang 보고싶어날엔 ('Bogoshipobaren' literally I Miss You) sung by Park Ji-Hon.

The song is a sad song about leaving someone you love. Below is the lyrics and the translation:

우리 함께했던 날들
그 기억들만 남아
I am left only with the memories of those days when we used to be together

너를 지워야만
내가 살 수 있을까
Is forgetting you the only way for me to live?

우리 함께했던 날들
자꾸만 너 떠올라
Memories of those days when we used to be together returns again and again

너를 보내야만
내가 살 수 있을까
Is letting you go is the only way for me to live?

(가지마) 떠나지마 제발
(Don't go) Please don't leave

(가지마) 사랑하잖아
(Don't go) I love you

(가지마) 나 혼자 남겨두고
(Don't go) You will leave me alone

제발 제발 제발
Please Please Please

가지마 가지마 가지마
Don't go Don't go Don't go

아직 너를 위해
바보처럼 살아가는데
Like a fool I still love you

너는 어디에
Where are you

니가 필요한데
I need you

oh baby 내 사람아
Oh baby, My all

이제 그만내게 돌아와줘
장난처럼 그렇게 돌아와
Please stop now and come back
Come back as if it was a joke

항상 너만을 위해서
살아가고 싶지만
Always I wanted to live for you

때론 그 사랑마저도
힘이 들잖아
(가지마) 떠나지마 제발
(Don't go) Please don't leave

(가지마) 사랑하잖아
(Don't go) I love you

(가지마) 나 혼자 남겨두고
(Don't go) You will leave me alone

제발 제발 제발
Please Please Please

가지마 가지마 가지마
Don't go Don't go Don't go

아직 너를 위해
바보처럼 살아가는데
Like a fool I still love you

너는 어디에
Where are you

니가 필요한데
I need you

oh baby 내 사람아
Oh baby, my all

이제 그만 내게 돌아와줘
장난처럼 그렇게 돌아와
Please stop now and come back
Come back as if it was a joke

아프고 아플만큼
Hurt and as much as the pain

지치고 지칠만큼
Tired and as much as exhausted

지워봐도 참아봐도
I tried to erase you and forget

니가 떠올라
But you are in my mind

너도 나처럼 아프잖아
You are hurt as I am

너도 나처럼 힘들잖아
You are tired as I am

돌아와 내게로
Please come back to me

잊지 못할 내 사람아
My unforgettable one

아직 너를 위해
바보처럼 살아가는데
Like a fool I still love you

너는 어디에
Where are you

니가 필요한데
I need you

oh baby 내 사람아
Oh baby, my all

이제 그만 내게 돌아와줘
장난처럼 그렇게
Please stop now and come back
Come back as if it was a joke

oh baby 내 사람아
Oh baby, my all

이제 그만 내게 돌아와줘
그렇게 돌아와
Please stop now and come back
Like before, come back to me... 

Just me doing my thing. Funny that I was not so prepared this time. I won third place though.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

EVENT | 2009 World Pyrolympics


Contender 1: Germany

Germany’s approach to its fireworks display was quite disappointing for two reasons. First is the passé musical scoring, the kind you hear at the entrance of Star Wars and Superman. Well it was at first exciting with the beat and all, but the fireworks just didn’t match with the sound. Second, the fireworks had no order. It was like sent up the air randomly with no reason except to make it look like they are having a pyrolympics. There was just nothing you can get out of Germany’s exhibition. Actually, their performance looks a lot the common New Year celebrations of the Filipinos on New Year’s eve.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

The Conclusion

Just as Koreans find it difficult to pronounce some English sounds of the English language, sounds of the Korean letters can be very difficult also for foreigners like me. For example, Koreans have words that have the same sound to foreigners but actually have different meanings. For example, the words 방 and 빵. They actually have the same sound but to Koreans they have distinct sounds which are just not easily detected by foreigners. When I say, ‘나 는 방을 먹어싶어요’ does not make a difference when I say ‘나는 빵을 먹어싶어 요’ This makes it more difficult to pronounce since we can't distinguish the difference.


한 국인들이 영어 발음의 어려움을 느끼듯이, 외국인들 또한 한국어 발음의 어려움을 느낍니다. 방과 빵을 예를들면, 외국인들에 게 이 두 소리는 같게 느껴집니다. 하지만 의미차이는 확연히 다릅니다. 한번은 제가 ‘방을 먹고 싶다’고 한국인친구에게 말했 을 때, 그 친구가 크게 웃었던 기억이 납니다. 영어에는 없는 소리를 배운다는 게 얼마나 어려운 일인지 절실히 깨달았습니다.

Another problem is the spelling. Korean language has a thing called pachim that moves to the next word if that next word starts with a vowel. Pretty complicated especially to foreigners who aren't used to this kind of system and writing. For example, the word ‘살’ and ‘살 다’. I just can’t distinguish which meaning it is especially when used in a sentence. Plus, Korean language has many endings attached to a word depending on what one wants to say. This approximates conjunctions and particles like ‘은, 에, 에 서, 님, 는대’ and many more.

또 하나의 문제는 철자입니다. 한국어는 받침이 있습니다. 이것 또한 저에게 아 주 어려운 부분이었습니다. 영어에는 모든 글자들이 단순히 나열되어 이어져있기 때문입니다. 게다가 한국어의 ‘조사’라는 개념은 정 말 어려웠습니다. 나는, 저는, 저의, 제가, 내가, 무엇은, 무엇에, 무엇에서, 등… 너무나 많습니다.

In the end...

결론적으로 저는 외국어를 배운다는 것이 단순히 단어나 표현들을 외우는 것이 아니라는 것을 느꼈습니다. 제 생각에는 오히려 언어 를 배운다는 것은 문장을 외는 것을 넘어, 그 나라의 문화를 이해해야할 필요가 있다는 것을 알았습니다. 영어에서의 ‘I’가 한국어 에서는 ‘나’, 나의, 저는, 저의, 내가, 등으로 여러 개로 쓰일 수 있습니다. 가장 큰 이유중의 하나는 한국에는 상대방에 대 해 자신의 위치를 낮추고 높이는, 예절문화가 있기 때문이라고 생각합니다. 이것들을 단순히 영어의 ‘I’와 같은 뜻이라고 생각하 는 것은 언어를 배우는 데 있어서 큰 한계가 될 것입니다. 하지만 새로운 언어를 배우는 것이 비록 어렵다 할 지라도, 나와 다 른 세상사람들과, 서로의 감정과 마음을 언어로 공유한다는 점에 있어서는, 언어를 배우는 것은 정말 재미있는 일인 것 같습니다. 여 기서 제 발표를 마치겠습니다. 감사합니다.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Hallym Academic Exchange Program

Application Phase

Where did you first hear about the UP – Hallym Academic Exchange Program?

I think it was in a symposium at CMC that I first heard about UP-Hallym Exchange Program. That time, Dean Pernia announced the second batch of CMC students leaving for the program. I wasn’t aware that time that this program exists so I was thinking, wow, the students must be really excellent to be chosen for this. That time, it was Marjorie Darunday and Malor who were leaving. I don’t personally know them so apart from admiring the students who were chosen for the program, there was really nothing that came into my mind.

What are your reasons/motivations for applying in the UP – Hallym Academic Exchange Program?

Actually I did not intend to apply for the program. It was a kind of an accident. There was post at CMC dept looking for an interested student who would accompany MA. ISABEL D. PROLLAMANTE to go to Korea as an exchange student because the original student backed out. I was really interested but I have other priorities so applying was just a wishful thinking. Then Prof. Umali suddenly passed and told me to try applying. I was like, ok, why not give it a try, for sure I won’t be chosen for this. So I sent Prof. Paragas my intention letter for the program. And then a week after, I was so surprised that Ate Vi came looking for me and told me that I was chosen for the program. I said, OH MY GOD, this can’t be. My initial reaction was a combination of fear and elation. I was afraid because what about my original plans of finishing my major and finding a job. On the other hand, thoughts of living in another Korea was like a drug that made me fly on cloud nine, so to speak. It was plain excitement I guess. So I called my mother and told her of the good news. But my mother didn’t let me go. But stubborn as I am, I told her that I would go even if they don’t support me. So in the end, it was my way.

Please describe the application process


Letter of intent to be submitted to concerned office.
Length of Application Period

In my case, one week. It was an urgent situation so I had a different process.

Problems Encountered

Financial problem comes at the top, plus processing papers like VISA and plane ticket which was my first time to encounter.

Assistance Provided by UP CMC and Hallym University

CMC helped me with the basic info like where to file this and that, while Hallym sent the necessary documents to process my Visa.

Exchange Program Proper (Stay in Hallym University / Korea)

Please describe your first few days/weeks in Hallym/Korea as an Academic Exchange student

Living Arrangements

The initial stay at Hallym was so exciting. Let me start from the airport.

When Isabel and I got to the airport, our challenging journey began as the custom people cannot speak English and would talk to us in Korean. It was 5:00 am and they were a bit hard on us demanding for we guessed as our passports. Isabel were ordered to pass by the other line because they mistook her to be Korean. So funny that time.

Inside the airport, the feeling was so unexplainable. It was my first time abroad and alone, without my parents nor friends. It was plain Isabel and I. I was afraid what could happened if things get wrong but I was determined to make things right. The boy scout in me made me prepare all things needed just in case a problem happens. I have all the contact numbers to call. So, having a few Korean coins given by Prof. Umali, we called our buddy who would pick us up at the airport. Time check, 5:45.

The buddy arrived at around 7am and treated us to a coffee shop for breakfast. Her name’s Hu Eun Ji. After that, we took the bus going to Chuncheon and along the way, I still couldn’t believe that I am here in Korea. It was so great.

At Hallym, we stayed in a dormitory. It was called International Dormitory because aside from us Filipinos, there were also Japanese, Chinese, Mongolians, Russians and of course Koreans. The male and female residents are separated in the dormitory. During the second semester there, I stayed at the 4th floor with two Korean men. Their names are Song Won and Dillon.

When I got into my room, my roommates weren’t there so I was really anxious not knowing what to expect. Then after unpacking some of my stuff, Isabel came to my room and asked for some shampoo because she still doesn't have. So after taking a shower, Isabe and I together with Hu Eun Ji went out to eat lunch. We ate lunch at the cafeteria and the food was called Topap, a kind breaded pork cutlet with sauce.

After eating lunch, we went to our department to process our schedules for the semester. Then we met our real buddies in Hallym. My buddy’s name is Park Bo Reom. She was a tall and pretty girl. Then at night, we ate dinner, the food was called Dakkalbi, chicken with vegetable which was so spicy. I had to contend with the fact that I don’t know how to use chopsticks so I asked for some fork.

And then the following day, we did some shopping at the local department store. Bought some toiletries and some food. At night, we drank at a local bar, I must tell you that this time, I wasn’t a heavy drinker yet and I despise drinking so I refused but they were so insistent that I just gave in. Nothing wrong with drinking anyway.

Then we had a meeting with the dormitory personnel and they briefed us of what and not to do in the dormitory. We were also introduced to some people.

The first few days in Hallym was really a challenge as I and Isabel had to find our ways, the rooms, the professors, the stores, the canteen, etc. But later on, we managed to find them all.

Making friends was not difficult too because Koreans like foreigners very much that they would treat us to some lunch or dinner, and even bring us to some good places. They really make effort to make us enjoy our stay at Hallym. And the best thing at Hallym was that everything is so fast, the computers, the people, the taxi, traffic, everything. People are very disciplined so there was nothing that I can whine about. It’s like a paradise to me. Athough one glitch that we Filipinos notice was that, Korean men spit anywhere. Aside from that everything’s okay.

I regularly drink with my Korean friends as if it became a way of living. I learned that drinking culture in Korea is somewhat necessary because it makes people closer to each other and I admire that. This is the reason why I became a heavy drinker, weekly drunk, I would curse myself for bringing headache on mornings. But it was really great, to drink with Koreans because they don’t let me pay. They are usually the ones who pay for everything and when Koreans drink, the food is like a buffet. They never stop coming so it was heaven on our part.

Enrollment process

When we arrived at Hallym, our enrollment was already done for us. We only needed to get our schedules. The administration was the one that decided our classes so we didn’t have any problem. For the next semester, it was we who did it. I had to ask some of my Korean friends to help me choose my subjects because everything was written in Korean in the online enrolment. But aside from my friends, the Communication department was also very helpful.

Financial Assistance

The dormitory where I was staying pays me 200,000 Won every month. They send it to my bank account. But this salary I received was only good for 8 months, so there was one month that I didn’t have money. I had to work some other jobs like work for some professors who organized an international conference and hired me as one of the coordinators for the participants. There were also Koreans who approached me to teach them English, plus there were English camps that also paid me. So money was not a problem in Korea.

How would you describe the Hallym University campus environment?

Classes enrolled in

Most of my classes, aside from Korean and Chinese, were done in English and considering that my classmates are mostly Koreans, they were too easy and do not require too much effort.


The foreign professors, Canadians, Australians, and Americans, were very professional and learned at their fields. They always give us foreigners who can speak English well special treatment because we can participate well in our classes.

Friends / People met

The friends and people I meet at Hallym were all very approachable. They really try their best to help me if there is something that I need and even if they find it difficult to speak in English, they really try. And all the people I met there were nice. I love them.

Leisure time

During free time I do so many things like play table tennis and badminton, watch DVD, surf the net, sleep in the library when I am so tired, drink coffee with my friends, or just walk around the campus. If I am hungry, I go the cafeteria and eat some good Chinese food.

Overall Evaluation

Please give a general evaluation of your stay in Hallym University

I think words are not enough to say how much I have enjoyed my stay in Hallym. The University is perfect in every way. They have all the facilities needed by the students and the campus is student friendly, safe and peaceful, clean and beautiful with all the trees and statues that are present all around the campus. Plus, internet is free and there are DVDs in the library which you can borrow. The DVDs are all the latest ones so you can just imagine how fantastic it was so see all the movies I could not see here in the Philippines.

And the journals in the library is like a treasure box for me. They have almost all journals imaginable. Perfect I tell you.

What were your most fun / positive experiences in Hallym University?

I had so many fun experiences at Hallym University. Perhaps the best ones include the day that Isabel and I won in the singing competition of the International Dormitory, the Membership training of communication students where everyone drank from evening to dawn, the International conference where people drank so much and I got so drank too that I started fooling around with the speakers (you can ask Isabel how drunk I was) that the following day, Isabel told me that I was criss crossing the way to the university elbow to elbow with the Taiwanese speaker and I kept talking to the Singaporean speaker saying how much I admire her talk during the conference; there was also the time that I represented Hallym University at an affair for foreigners where I sang in front of hundreds of people both Koreans and foreigners mostly Filipina wives; And of course, my drinking activities with my Korean friends were so memorable.
What were your most frustrating / negative experiences in Hallym University?

Most frustrating experience would be that time when I was at the library, watching Will and Grace. I was laughing a bit loudly that one guy from my back suddenly hit me at the head. I was so shocked but I realized my mistake so I just let it pass. Then another frustrating experience was when I went mountain climbing. I was at the top, doing some stretching when an old lady approached me and asked me whether I was a factory worker in some place near Hallym. I was so insulted that time that I just smiled at her and politely said no.

What are the problems you encountered during your stay in Hallym University?

The number one problem I think is the language barrier. Although many students can speak English in Hallym still not many would dare talk to us because we can’t speak Korean. And then the food, all the time I was in Hallym, I kept wishing I could eat Filipino food, the oily Filipino food. That’s why when I went to Seoul, I bought some Balot at a Filipino market. Unfortunately, it made my Korean companions distance from me as I smell awful after eating balot. The weather also became a problem as there was a time when I got sick for one month, then I lost my voice because it was too cold. Guess I wasn’t so tough on winter season.

Please give a brief comparison of Hallym University and University of the Philippines in terms of:

Level of Instruction (subjects, professors, etc.)

The level of instruction when it comes to English is very easy in Hallym. The English  professors try to make their statements as simple as they can. In UP, the level of instruction is very challenging as professors use jargons most of the time.

However, in Korean classes, the Korean teachers are more strict when handling their classes. But they are also considerate to the needs of the students. They consider the welfare of their students as they ask when is the best time for the students to have exams, or when can they pass some homework.

In UP, teachers dictate what students should do. In Hallym, the teachers ask their students.

The people (students, etc.)

The students are very responsible in Hallym. If a professor asks them to do something, they will really do it and if they don’t have time, they will talk to the professor and ask for some extension or simply tell the professor that they can’t do it because it is very difficult. At the end of the day, Hallym students submit requirements on time.

At UP, students are usually procrastinators and do not have sense of time. It’s normal for UP students to be late but in Hallym, it is very unacceptable and they get angry if someone does not come on time.

Personnel in Hallym are also very approachable and helpful. If you ask them something, they would really make  an effort to help you or if they can’t, they will find another one who can just to make sure that you get what you need.

In UP, personnel are usually not student friendly. If you approach someone in a window, they will make you wait for a long time, sometimes because there is someone they are talking to or calling on the phone. Then when they talk to you, it’s as if you’ve given them so much burden by coming to their office.


Hallym University is a very clean and safe place. You can go around and you won’t see any trash lying around anywhere. And because it is safe, you never have to worry about walking at night. And the drivers in Hallym are very polite too, they would let people pass first before they go ahead.

In UP, sometimes trash can be seen everywhere. People are not disciplined enough to put their garbage in proper places. And it is so unsafe to walk at night in UP as you can encounter robbers or rapists. 


Hallym University is not so big compared to UP but I really like the place. Everywhere there are parking lots, the buildings are clean, the toilets are clean and they have tissues in every toilet. The facilities are state of the art, and they have all the equipment you might need.

As a participant in the Hallym University – University of the Philippines Academic Exchange Program, what are your suggestions or recommendations for further improvement of the exchange program?

I would suggest that participants of the program learn how to speak Korean first before they are sent to Hallym University. Although it is not so difficult to live there not knowing how to speak their language, it is an edge to know how to communicate using their own tongue. My Mongolian friends who can speak Korean had more friends in Hallym because they can interact with Koreans who cannot speak English.

For UP’s part, it must also come up with a similar BUDDY PROGRAM for Korean Exchange students in the university. I know how difficult it is to become a foreign student so I feel for these Koreans who sometimes feel perplexed with their classes and Filipino classmates. Sometimes they feel that the Filipinos are rude because they always talk in Filipino when they are together and take the Koreans fro granted. By having some buddies, they will be sure to have someone to help them with their needs.

UP students who would apply as buddies should be remunerated in turn for their work. The university can give them more opportunity to be selected in exchange programs not just in Hallym but other countries as well. By doing so, many students would be enticed to participate in the Buddy program.

Kamera Kafe: A Textual Analysis on the Portrayal of Filipinos in Camera Café

Sample clip from Camera Cafe

Authors: Abdula, Allan Yasser Z.; Onate, Jojit Aero


This study aims to explore how Filipinos are portrayed in the comedy program Camera Café. Guided by the Social Construction of Reality, this study is purely qualitative. The researchers employed textual analysis to study the messages in the said program, and to acquire information on the representations and values presented in the program. Results show that Camera Café. The researchers have found remarkable situations in the episodes that reflect society. Furthermore, the representations of the characters suggest Filipino character and identity. Camera Café portrayed values, expressed a sense of national pride and culture and raised societal issues.

Background of the Study

Filipinos have been so used to comedy programs making fun of other people, using dirty and slapstick jokes, and sometimes politically overtoned. We cannot deny that we get entertained from all of these craziness, but at the end of the day remains one question and that is weather our viewing activity has given us much to think about. Or have we been so passive that we do not seek learning from programs that we watch but just sit in front of the boob tube and get some sheer entertainment?

It is truly high time that programs evolve into a more socially relevant entertainment avenues. After all, media still have the responsibility of educating and informing, and not just entertaining. This paper attempts to delve into one of the season's hip and contemporary comedy program, Camera Café. How has this program actually mirrored the social condition of the Philippines?

Set in an office, everything is seen through a coffee vendo machine and everyone with unique personalities crowd and talk about anything. However, their discussions at surface level are simple but when you look at them closely, there are touches of cultural factors present. In many episodes of the comedy show, different kinds of Filipino values are presented and as an audience you woud not help saying “Yes, that's how Filipinos do it.” What is more interesting is that we get to scrutinize our culture in a more distant way where there is room for objectivity. It is from here that we see how different values has either helped or hampered the development of our country. This paper will attempt to surface these portrayals of Filipino values and how these portrayals have contributed to the image of the Filipinos.

JOURNAL | 한국인들이 흔히 실수하는 영어표현들

안녕하세요 여러분. 제 이름은 알렌입니다. 한국 나이로 올해 24살이고요, 저는 현재 필리핀의 U.P 라는 대학에서 Communication을 전공하고 있습니다. 더불어 저는 현재 아르바이트로 한국인들에게 영어를 가르치는 일을 하고 있습니다. 그런데 제가 3년간 많은 한국인들을 가르치면서 한국인들의 영어에 대한 몇 가지 흥미로운 점들을 발견할 수 있었습니다.

그래서 저는 오늘 한국인들이 영어로 말할 때 흔히 실수하는 것들에 대해 이야기 해보려 합니다.

첫째로는, 한국말로 ‘약속’이라는 단어입니다. 한국인들이 말하는 ‘약속’은 두 가지 의미를 가집니다. 첫번째 의미는 만일 우리가 누군가를 만나야 할 때, 우리는 흔히 “나 오늘 약속이 있어”라고 말합니다. 이렇게 약속이라는 단어를 사용할 수 있습니다. 약속의 또 다른 의미는 상대방과 새끼 손가락을 걸고하는, 영어로 ‘promise’의 의미를 말합니다. 그러나 영어에서의 약속은 오직 한가지로만 쓰입니다.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Common English Mistakes Made By Koreans #1

An article culled from an internet source. Click the title for the original source.

Hello everyone, today I want to talk about common mistakes that Koreans make when they speak English. First, I want to talk about the word yak-sok. In Korean, yak-sok can be used in many situations. For example, if you are meeting someone you can say “I’m going to an appointment” You can use it like that and you can also use the promise yak-sok. But in English, both have different meanings. First, the yak-sok you go to is appointment in English. So, if you want to say ‘I have an appointment that I have to go to’ in English, you have to say: Oh, I have an appointment I have to go to. Occasionally Koreans say ‘I have a promise.’ But, that promise is a mistake. If you want to say promise, and say something like: ‘I promise to try really hard to speak Korean.’ You need to say: ‘I promise to try to speak Korean.’ That yak-sok is promise.

Also secondly, when Koreans speak English the hardest pronunciation is r and l. It’s because Korean has the re-ul pronunciation. But re-ul is kind of between r and l. l is the re-ul from chin-ri (the truth chin-ri). The r pronunciation doesn’t exist. So just learn it from someone who speaks English. But the most important thing is that if you switch r and l it’s really strange. For example, ‘I like to eat rice’. In English it’s, ‘I like to eat rice.’ But when Koreans first speak English, They say ‘I like to eat lice.’ That means something like I like to eat bedbugs. So learn the r and l pronunciation well! Also I attend college right? One of my Korean friends told me something last semester. She said: ‘everyone stood up and started crapping.’ When I heard it, I thought what? what did you say? what? Because in English, it means everyone stood up and started pooping. It means something like that. But she should have said: ‘everyone started clapping.’ that means everyone stood up and started clapping. So the r and l pronunciation is very important. Don’t make a mistake like that!

And third, when people ask questions, the answer is very important. For example, in Korea if you say yes when someone asks: “Are you not going to speak Korean?’ It means ‘yes, I won’t speak Korean.’ But that’s wrong in English. When people say: Are you not going to speak Korean anymore? Koreans usually say yes. But when you answer in English it means: ‘Yes, I will speak Korean’. But if you say no it means ‘no, I’m not going to …’ If you say yes in English, It means: Yes, I’m going to do that. But if you say no it means: ‘No, I’m not going to …’ So use yes and no well!

Fourth, the s-i pronunciation is really hard for Koreans. It’s because Koreans have the ’she’ pronunciation. But they don’t have a si pronunciation. But like r and l, the si sound is very important. If you say it wrong, you’ll swear. In English we have s-i-t, sit. In English, it means sit. So don’t use the s-h pronunciation. If you use s-h, it’s s-h-i-t, shit. poop. So: ‘I’m going to go sit on the chair’ means I’m going to go sit on the chair. But: ‘I’m going to go shit on the chair’ means I’m going to go poop on the chair. So please say the s-i pronunciation well!

Also, when Koreans speak English Sometimes they add an e sound at the end of words. Church is church in English. But, I’ve heard a lot of Koreans say churchy. Please don’t add the e sound to the end of words. Just add ‘uh’. So if you have to use konglish, don’t say ‘Chyeu-chi’. Say ‘Chyeu-chuh.’ That’s really important.

Lastly, Koreans sometimes use konglish when speaking English. Remember what the konglish is in English. For example, when my friend came here she said … Some guy gave my friend a ride. But when my friend saw his car, she said: ‘Nice open car!’ But in English, open car is convertible. So if you say open car to someone who speaks English, it’s strange There’s also eye shopping. People who speak English don’t say eye shopping, they say window shopping. But since I learned konglish sometimes I say eye shopping even though I speak English.

Those are mistakes that Koreans make when they speak English. But those aren’t all. There’s a lot of other things but this video is a little long isn’t it? So if I think of something new I’ll make another video. If you have a question, go to my blog or comment below Well, have a good day! Bye.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Three word phrases

I think today was kind of hopeful and the turn of events really gave me reason to look forward to working hard in the next four months with my THESIS.

Honestly, I have broken up with the idea that I will be a CUM LAUDE when I graduate but all of a sudden when I asked about the appeal, Ate Luming told me to prepare the necessary papers with back up of the College and that might just take care of everything. I came up with this idea since there is really nothing to lose. Graduate with honor or not, doesn't really make much difference but I toy with this idea and it makes me feel good. At least a reason to work hard.

This way also, I think I'll be able to keep up with my thesis partner who's been working hard on this. Finally, I can put up with her and no more self pity nor excuses. We'll get along fine so long as I cut down on excuses.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

JOURNAL | For The Better Me

[Gateway Cubao]

Met my high school friends, Algreen and Kathrina, today. As usual, I was late again by almost an hour. We were supposed to meet at 3pm but I arrived at 4pm. Well, so much for trying so hard to make it on time. The thing is, I think I had an insomnia attack last night. It was already morning when I felt sleepiness settle in. I woke up at the usual time, 1pm, got up after half an hour, had lunch and took a bath. When I finished everything it was already 3pm. I texted Kathrina hoping she’ll be late, but damn, she was already there waiting for me.

I just don’t get it. An hour is simply not enough for me? I think, I need to reconsider things and give myself a couple of hours to prepare if I have some appointments. I was telling myself on the way to Gateway that if this was a meeting with some important client, then I am so fucked up. I won’t have any career in the future. Two hours, that will be my mantra for the rest of the year. Talk about not being late.


I don’t want to forget this day. So despite my spent condition, I am continuing this journal.
As promised, I met my Korean friends in front of ShopWise[1] at 3pm. Took a cab since I was running late. The funny things was that, I got up from bed, changed clothes and went out immediately. No brushing of teeth, not even washing face. But I had to drop by Dolly’s place to hand over the money and eat lunch.

So, this story starts with my encounter of the stupid taxi driver. After arriving at ShopWise, I told the taxi driver to bring us instead to UP. The driver asked for an additional 30 Pesos saying that I didn’t tell him that we’ll change course. I didn’t agree. I said, what change would it make if I asked him to bring us to UP instead. He answered that he could have got another passenger and earn 30 Pesos if we I didn’t ask to drive us to UP. Anyway, I decided to write down the conversation between us.

Jogging in November

[Listening to John Mayer song]

My stomach really hurts badly, and I am worried I've hurt myself too badly I might have appendicitis. I just did the most stupid thing this morning, jogging after eating breakfast or was it jogging without having any sleep. Things I do to myself, sometimes I get surprised too. But I already called my friend Dazzle to ask about appendicitis and she said you don’t really get it from jumping after eating so I was kind of a relieved to hear that. She told me that the appendix is located just below the navel somewhere on the right side, diagonally from the navel. Perhaps, my body’s just aching from the strenuous jogging I did this morning.

JOURNAL | Reaction to ‘5 Ways to Hack Your Brains into Awesomeness’

These days I find writing personal journals quite cumbersome that I’d rather stay in bed and doze off. But that is really lazy and I seriously want to change that habit so I’ll try to write my thoughts down as often as possible. It’s just that whenever I open my laptop, instead of writing I just watch porn. I sometimes curse the makers of these porns. They simply distract me from doing what I should be doing. Anyway, today I will try to write down as much as I can.  

To start off, I chanced upon this article from the Internet talking about how people can use the hidden capabilities of the human mind. It talked about how we can control dreams, rhythm of sleep, and so on. Well, I was kind of intrigued by this since I can really control dreams sometimes. But I find doing just that quite difficult these days because of my hectic schedule. Wow, what an excuse. In this blog[1] entry, I’ll jot down some of these intriguing mental facts/fiction.  

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


If you want to win free trip to Kuala Lumpur, click the link.

Madali lang pramis.

Friday, October 23, 2009


This one's sent to me by my fellow teacher in my part time job office.

A young man saw an elderly couple sitting down to lunch at McDonald's. He noticed that they had ordered one meal, and an extra drink cup. As he watched, the gentleman carefully divided the hamburger in half, then counted out the fries, one for him, one for her, until each had half of them. Then he poured half of the soft drink into the extra cup and set that in front of his wife. The old man then began to eat, and his wife sat watching, with her hands folded in her lap. The young man decided to ask if they would allow him to purchase another meal for them so that they didn't have to split theirs.

The old gentleman said, "Oh no. We've been married 50 years, and everything has always been and will always be shared, 50/50." The young man then asked the wife if she was going to eat, and she replied, "Not yet. It's his turn with the teeth."

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Last night I lost my cellphone at Che’lu

Just having fun

Most of the people I talked to only have one thing to say to me and that is ‘it’s your fault.’ Well, they’re right. I am careless. I didn’t watch my self as I am drunk that time. Somebody danced with me and I think that’s the time he took the phone. But I was just thankful because he didn’t take my wallet. I don’t know what will happen to me if my wallet was also taken. This really sucks. I have to learn that some people in Manila are just plain hopeless kleptomaniacs, the hard way.

I guess I was right when I told Algreen that this will be the last time that I will go to a bar. I didn’t want to go to Che’lu but Algreen was so persistent, saying that O’Bar is so much crowded than Che’lu. Well I kind of dislike the crowd in O’Bar anyway so I just gave in. Little did I know that this morning will be an unforgettable one. Always my trip in Malate is unforgettable. Just really makes me regret big time this unbecoming on my conduct. I noticed that my nose that morning was strangely sensitive. I can smell smoke and it makes my nose hurt. So bar hopping is already a closed chapter for me. God has ways of teaching me, and he made sure that I’ll learn from this mistake. Going to Malate is already a mistake. Hanging out with people who knows nothing but to smoke, drink, and get laid is a crime. Yes, I have learned my lesson well and I will never step on that place again. Actually, I don’t want to be in another club anymore. I am better off with my books and the comfort of my room.

Earlier, I was on stage, doing my thing, a little drunk. Somebody climbed and covered my view, so I touched his waist and sort of move him aside because I can’t see anything. But he was so agitated I had to keep my hands off from him. Beside me were girls, also busy dancing and one of them is trying to catch my eyes. After my brief encounter with the girl last last week in the same bar, I have known better than to flirt with girls. I get so touchy and girls don’t like touching.

If I may add, I was acting really stupid at that crowded and polluted bar. After realizing that I am missing my phone already, I started looking at the floor half-expecting that my phone just dropped. But of course, I was just trying to convince myself that time though I know it was already taken by someone. I wish him happiness, whoever he is. Let Karma work its way through him. Anyway, looking for the phone somebody kissed me and I tried to push him away. Told him that I lost my phone and he said, ‘malandi ka kasi.’ I am now thinking about it, and I find it really absurd for someone whom I didn’t know to say that I am ‘malandi’ when he doesn’t know me. I mean I was just dancing. Unless he was the one who took my phone. But I doubt because he was holding other things. 

At last, at the break of dawn, most people started leaving. I was still on the stage. When I was the only left on the stage, I still kept on dancing like crazy and then this stupid guy who kissed me went near the stage. But as I am trying to avoid him, I just kept myself busy by dancing. After some minutes, I left the bar. Waited for a taxi outside. And there, again in the light, I see how pathetic the previous night has been. Wasted too much money and lost my phone for some fun I didn’t really enjoy. I guess, this kind of life isn’t just right for me. I guess, I am not cut for this.

Predicting the future

I guess I was right when I told Algreen that this will be the last time that I will go to a bar. I didn’t want to go to Che’lu but Algreen was so persistent, saying that O’Bar is so much crowded than Che’lu. Well I kind of dislike the crowd in O’Bar anyway so I just gave in. Little did I know that this morning will be an unforgettable one. Always my trip in Malate is unforgettable. Just really makes me regret big time this unbecoming on my conduct. I noticed that my nose that morning was strangely sensitive. I can smell smoke and it makes my nose hurt. So bar hopping is already a closed chapter for me. God has ways of teaching me, and he made sure that I’ll learn from this mistake. Going to Malate is already a mistake. Hanging out with people who knows nothing but to smoke, drink, and get laid is a crime. Yes, I have learned my lesson well and I will never step on that place again. Actually, I don’t want to be in another club anymore. I am better off with my books and the comfort of my room.

I am so grieving at this lost. I feel like I lost a part of my past. All those people in my contact list, all gone and irretrievable.

I don’t know what I am talking about when I told Algreen that when you go to a bar like Che’lu, you have to have a purpose. And what is my purpose? To have a good time. And what is a good time? To dance with people. Dancing makes me happy. That’s all

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Mali ka na naman

Grabe, sobrang antok to the maximum level na ito.

3:36 na ng umaga at ako ay hindi pa natutulog.

I just finished working on my first 5 articles and I am really doubting this decision.

may cellphone ka nga, patay ka naman.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Friday once again

Feeling so tired on a Friday night, just like the other days. Nothing else in mind except to go home. Feel the comfort of my laptop. Or maybe just go out, drink, get drunk. I don't know. I just feel so confused. This week has been so heavy on me. It felt like a whole month laid on my back. There are still so many things on my mind- things which should be settled soon.

There's really no other way. My hands are sweating as if I have been plowing fields. But maybe I am plowing, just a different field. I smile now as I think of leaving the country. That's the only way I can get things settled for me. I just want to leave and forget who I am. I am talking to my friend, who broke up with her girlfriend. I keep reminding her that it's better to leave her ex- be. But she tells me that they're just friends. Something I should take with a spoon of salt.  

Part-time job woes 

Responsibilities are part of a job, The only thing that makes this responsibility difficult is that it comes as a forced effort. I simply can'ttake this anymore. But I ain't giving up. There's no quitting. There's always hope. I try to escape but no matter what I do, I keep ending on the same dead end; I keep feeling this damn feeling. I wish things were easier for me. I wish things were not like this. I just like the good old days- the carefree days when I don't have to think much. I have freedom but I am still bounded. I have freedom but I am still confused. I just don't know what to do now.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009


A joke I didn't easily get. I think I'm getting slower and slower.

After getting all of Pope Benedict's luggage loaded into the limo, (and he doesn't travel light), the driver notices the Pope is still standing on the curb.

'Excuse me, Your Holiness,' says the driver, 'Would you please take your seat so we can leave?'

'Well, to tell you the truth,' says the Pope, 'they never let me drive at the Vatican when I was a cardinal, and I'd really like to drive today.'

'I'm sorry, Your Holiness, but I cannot let you do that. I'd lose my job! What if something should happen?' protests the driver, wishing he'd never gone to work that morning..

'Who's going to tell?' says the Pope with a smile.

Reluctantly, the driver gets in the back as the Pope climbs in behind the wheel. The driver quickly regrets his decision when, after exiting the airport, the Pontiff floors it, accelerating the limo to 205 kph.. (Remember, the Pope is German..)

'Please slow down, Your Holiness!' pleads the worried driver, but the Pope keeps the pedal to the metal until they hear sirens. 

'Oh, dear God, I'm going to lose my license -- and my job!' moans the driver.

The Pope pulls over and rolls down the window as the cop approaches, but the cop takes one look at him, goes back to his motorcycle, and gets on the radio. 

'I need to talk to the Chief,' he says to the dispatcher. 

The Chief gets on the radio and the cop tells him that he's stopped a limo going 205 kph.

'So bust him,' says the Chief. 

'I don't think we want to do that, he's really important,' said the cop. 

The Chief exclaimed,' All the more reason!'

'No, I mean really important,' said the cop with a bit of persistence.

The Chief then asked, 'Who do you have there, the mayor?'

Cop: 'Bigger.'

Chief: ' A senator?'

Cop: 'Bigger.'

Chief: 'The Prime Minister?'

Cop: 'Bigger.'

'Well,' said the Chief, 'who is it?'

Cop: 'I think it's God!'

The Chief is even more puzzled and curious,

'What makes you think it's God?'

Cop: 'His chauffeur is the Pope!'

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Yu-na-ri (윤아리)

Fig. 1. Traditional korean game played during Chuseok.
I don't exactly know how to play this game but it seems like you have to toss the four bars and then.. well, you can use your imagination.

Monday, October 5, 2009

It’s All About Mistakes

If a barber makes a mistake, It's a “NEW STYLE”
If a driver makes a mistake, It is a “NEW PATH”
If parents makes a mistake, It is a “NEW GENERATION”
If a politician makes a mistake, It is a “NEW LAW”
If a scientist makes a mistake, It is a “NEW INVENTION”
If a tailor makes a mistake, It is a “NEW FASHION”
If a teacher makes a mistake, It is a “NEW THEORY”
If our boss makes a mistake, It is a “NEW IDEA”
If an employee makes a mistake, It is a “MISTAKE”

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Will Smith belts "I am Telling You"

This is a funny video of Will Smith, lip sync-hing "I am Telling You". Smith's so gay... I just couldn't stop laughing. He's one of the best American actors I love (next to Tom Hanks). Click the link:

Students Need Money

A letter a student wrote to his parents hinting that he needed some money.... The following letter was written home to his parents by a student who was trying to hint that he needed some money.....
Dear Father, $chool i$ really great. I am making lot$ of friend$ and $tudying very hard. With all my $tuff, I $imply ?an''t think of anything I need, $o if you would like, you can ju$t $end me a card, a$ I would love to hear from you. Love, Your $on.
After receiving his son''s letter, the father immediately replied with this letter:
Dear Son, I kNOw that astroNOmy, ecoNOmics, and oceaNOgraphy are eNOugh to keep even an hoNOr student busy. Do NOt forget that the pursuit of kNOwledge is a NOble task, and you can never study eNOugh. Love, Dad

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Adapting to Diverse Culture for Development

They say that when the gods created the island of the Philippines, they were so happy they made 1,106 more. So goes one of the folktales in our literature. 

True enough, this god-given gift gave life to a diversity which we now call Filipino culture. For the thousand and more islands in the land bore the richness of unique cultures each displaying the Filipino spirit, alive in every sense of the word. No matter where you go, great surprises await you. From Aparri to Jolo, you can never miss out on the distinctive Filipino-ness that separates us from other Asian countries. The pearl of the orient seas, as we are fondly called, continue to amaze foreigners as they see the defining characteristics of the Filipinos, resilient and optimistic. 

Just this Saturday, Typhoon Ondong ravaged the land leaving hundreds of families homeless and some bereaved by the death of their relatives. Some say that this catastrophe was the worst in 50 years. Yet, we Filipinos continue to rise and move on. Interviews of people on TV show how people can flash their smiles on cam aware that their houses have already been under water. Our ability to laugh in horrible events like this may be odd to a stranger. He may wonder how in the world Filipinos can still laugh and make jokes out of his serious predicament. But the Filipinos have always been positive, hopeful that despite setbacks, there is a way out and that what really makes us different from the rest. 

Frankly, I am here today not to talk about the Filipinos’ optimism. However, it is cultural traits like this that enables a Filipino to adapt to many challenges in life, and one of those emerging challenges is the influx of cultural exchange in and out of the country. 

Good morning everyone and welcome to this day’s event. This morning, I am honored to share to you some thoughts on adapting to diverse culture for development. Ladies and gentlemen, perhaps most of us who are gathered here have relatives working abroad. I for one have a brother working in Saudi Arabia as a hotel crew. He has been in the country for almost two years now; funny, because he has also worked as a driver in Hong Kong years before. Admittedly, life in another country is difficult. He would tell me stories about how peoples’ way of thinking in the countries he has been is totally different from the way we do. Sometimes, he has to be extra careful about his behavior as if walking on tight ropes just to survive. 

He had a choice- he could just come back and start anew here in our country. But because he is as much Filipino as we are, he was not disheartened by this difficulty but instead got inspired to prove to the rest of the world what Filipinos are made of. And what indeed are we made of? We are the products of a century old history that molded us into what we are today. Our roots come from the lines of heroes and we have worked extremely hard to prove that we are people deserving of respect and admiration. Thus, bowing down to challenges like adapting to diverse cultures is a mock to our name. For as they say, we Filipinos are the masters of adaptation. We are the nurses in London, engineers in the Middle East, entertainers in the USA, domestic helpers in Hong Kong, teachers in Korea. Call it the Filipino diaspora, nevertheless we are everywhere and we are not hampered by this diversity of cultures, in fact, we have used this diversity to our advantage and this is what makes our race truly inspiring. This paved way to thousand of Filipinos benefit from greener pastures, support their families and in the process, support the economy of the country as dollar remittances add to the revolving fund of our country. As thousands more will continue to fly to other lands, their ability to adapt to diverse cultures will be their number one armor in the challenge posed by working in foreign lands. Let us give ourselves some credit. Let’s give ourselves a round of applause. 

Internally, the Philippines has also experienced an influx of cultures that continue to shape our own culture. That is, apart from the given richness of our culture which I have raised earlier, this culture continues to evolve and grow to accommodate changes, for our flexibility enables us to embrace the positive contribution of foreign cultures to us. It is in this process that we are able to mature. 

Months ago, my son who has spent a year in Korea, brought home some Korean friends of his. Apart from the Korea novellas I see on television, my encounter with Koreans is non-existent. So I was clueless on how to deal with these visitors. But it is perhaps the Filipino trait in me that guided me to treat these foreign visitors the best way a good host can. And so I served them some Filipino food- nilaga, chopsuey, galunggong, and much to my surprise they liked it. I realized that it is not difficult to adapt to others, much to their culture. I realized that what is more important is that earnest desire to understand each other and to compromise. My son told me that his friends had a great time in our house. 

Furthermore, the Filipino adaptability has been one crucial factor for the booming call center industry in our country. President Arroyo even mentioned in her last State of the Nation Address that this industry has grown to a bigger proportion. Foreign investors have realized the potential of the Filipinos to handle cultures totally different to us plus the ability to speak foreign languages easily- English, Chinese, French, name it and a Filipino can easily learn how to speak it with a twang a native speaker can hardly notice he’s speaking to a Filipino. This again shows how adapting to foreign cultures is but second nature to us. 

Perhaps a day will come when more investors can come to our land. When that happens, the possibilities will be endless. I know all of you have your own stories to tell about encounters with foreigners and it is these encounters that start cultural exchanges and this is how we learn how to adapt to various cultures that come our way. 

The future is uncertain that I know, but because I am a Filipino, I am confident that no matter what happens, no matter what this life brings us, we will continue to thrive. For it is in our adaptability that can lead to future developments of this country. Thank you so much and have a great day.

Monday, September 28, 2009

President Arroyo's menu and bill in New York

I got these photos from an anonymous email showing the president's imprudence- spending so much when the country is suffering. I don't understand how she can take these all in, the mud she's putting on her sleeves, just make me disgust the politicians all the more. Below are the food and the corrupted money they used to pay for this indulgence.
Fig. 1. The food bill of Arroyo and the gang in Le Cirque Restarant, amounting to almost $20,000.00, close to a million when converted to Philippine Peso.
Fig. 2. Here are the people that makes the country a wasted land, sucking everything for their own good. See them toast, makes my blood boil. The venue by the way is the infamous Le Cirque, the ever expensive restaurant.
Fig. 3. Le Cirque Salad (P1,078)
Fig. 4. Krug Champagne (11 bottles were ordered amounting to P249,000) Fig 5. Le Cirque Saddle of Lamb (P2,458) Fig. 6. Dover Sole (P3, 675), the most expensive in the main course
Fig. 7. Le Cirque Tuna (P1,029)
Fig. 8. Le Cirque Lobster Salad (P2,842/plate)
Fig. 9. Golden Osetra Caviar (P13,720/order) Fig. 10. California Osetra Caviar (P4, 900/order) Fig. 11. Le Cirque Soft Shell Crab Tempura (P1, 078/ platter) Fig. 12. Le Cirque Halibut Poached in Coconut Milk (P1, 960) Fig. 13. Le Cirque Spring Pea Soup (P1, 176) Fig. 14. Le Cirque Wild Burgundy Escargot (P1, 421) Fig. 15. Le Cirque Torchon of Foie Gras (P1, 715) Fig. 16. Paupiette of Black Cod (P2, 401)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Murphy's Law

Damn it.... And so I have been brushing elbows with Murphy. Murphy who? Murphy's Law. Yes, the one that say anything wrong can go wrong at the most unexpected time. Oh dear.... this morning I was really flustered, or rather horrified that all the unluckiness have fallen down on me. First, I wasn't able to finish the paper on time when I thought, just before I went to bed it was just easy knowing I just have to rearrange the titles and put them in their proper places. But no. I'm late again. Second, I went rushing to the internet shop only to find that it was closed. How fair is that? Third, I go to this ugly shop and when I turn on the computer, it was so slow; the keyboard isn't working; and it's all ready 13 past 5am. Fourth, the thesis partner sent me a message but I couldn't reply simply because I don't have cellphone credit. I wonder what's gonna happen next... I know, I'm looking at a stressful day.

EVENT | 34th UP Kalilayan Alumni Homecoming

I think I should learn (really soon) how to be more prudent when it comes to organizing events I attend. I have developed the habit of putting aside things I deem can be for later but in the process, I tend to forget them. All my fault. Anyway, below is the programme of the event I just hosted last August 29, 2009 (Saturday) at Dampa, Cubao.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Filthy rich

First day of September. Where was I last year on this day? As I think about think, well I think I was so busy trying to manage my academic life trying to balance the little human left in me. I've become more of a zombie living in the twilight zone where the only thing that makes me breathe is the hope that the future will be a lot different than this. Is it my job? Funny, I never considered what I do as a job given the meager income I get out of this. But after asking some people whose answer whether they are happy with their salary rangers from -'I enjoy my work' or 'it pays the bills' I realized that I should be happier. Ironically, I am not as I know that I am more than this. Is it the academics? Well, it's always the academics. I feel like I am always burdened by this academics crap that when I graduate, the first thing I'll do is to burn all my university notes and try to forget all the suffering I've experienced from what, 7 years in college. Never have I imagined that I'll be this long in college. But nonetheless, the future is within my reach, I'll be rich... filthy rich.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009


2 cups of coffee, and palpitating again. Maybe a little more and I will have a heart attack. When I go home, I wish I can really do what I want. Clean my things. Watch my Korean DVDs. Arrange my files in my computer. So many things to do- so little time. I wish my day is more than 24 hours. I wish things were a lot better.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Urgency and responsibility

Attended Sunday worship with Sarah Edjan today. Sarah's one of my best friends and I thought of joining her today since I neede some spiritual healing. Fortunately, I did receive some spiritual healing even a little bit. I had a few realizations and that include the following:  

I. Sense of Urgency

For most people like me, or should I say to people like me, it is always a struggle to manage time properly. I never had that sense of urgency since I have this thinking that time will always be there and I can always have excuses. Much of my life has been reduced to petty excuses why I can't deliver my duties on time and it is really taking its toll on me like a big rock pressing my soul deeper and deeper until I can't do anything good anymore, until my self-esteem and self-respect has been nothing.

As I try to look at this problem this very moment, I realize that I get easily distracted by the simplest of things and I easily tire from the same old things that I do. I just want peace, to be left alone and do my stuff. Whenever I am with people, I tend to lose slef-control and before I know it I can no longer compose my self and get looking at my personal goals which is to become successful. But how can someone like me who can never deliver on time become successful? Seriously this is becoming my dilemma, and I want to move on with peace in my heart. But how can I?
II. Sense of responsibility

This sense of responsibility is still something that I need to learn to imbibe in my personal values. I just can't see the importance of upholding my responsibilities since I think it would only affect me when I fail to deliver, but what I don't see is that I am connected with people, to a bigger chain that failing affects many. I guess this irresponsibleness of mine roots from my over regard of myself.

I see myself as someone great, deserving of respect but even respect cannot be forced out of people. It is not something asked but freely given. And when people respect you, it's because they think you deserve it and not because you told them to do so. And so, have I earned their respect? Do I even deserve their respect? Sometimes I dwell on self pity because there is nothing much respectful about me. I am a liar, lazy, dirty, ugly, poor- and all I do my entire life is to wear a mask to cover all these scars in my character. And where has it brought me now? It's here- a land of pretentions where I don't even know who I am. This mask that I am wearing has become so prominent that there is nothing much about me anymore that people see. I am a fool to think that I am good enough.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Funny cartoons

If you just don't know what you're doing, admit it. People are just to egotistic of their imperfections. Like me.
I think this is really funny. I just love chicken.
Yeah right, when feel like we have the worst job in the world, it makes us feel good to know that there are some who are having worse.

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